A letter for Beckett

Hi, baby. Mom here.

Guess what? You’re one month old today! I made you a onesie to commemorate this occasion.

This month has been an incredibly exciting, emotional whirlwind. One month ago today, we got to look into your sweet eyes for the first time (when they were open…you sleep a whole lot).

I still have no idea what I’m doing or how to be a parent to you, but I can’t imagine life without you. We are so proud of you, Beckett, and we still don’t fully know you.

I dream about your first words, your first steps, your first day of school…all the way until you graduate with your first doctorate. No pressure.

We’re new at being a mommy and a daddy, so I hope you can cut us some slack. You’ll always be the guinea pig as our oldest child. We’ll expect a lot from you, but I believe in you 100%. You should expect a lot from us, too. We’ve been entrusted with a very special little boy.

I can tell you right now that I will not always get everything right the first time. Or second or third or fourth… Lucky for both of us, we serve a faithful God who will be with you and I every step of the way.

I pray that you will be a mighty man of God. I pray that you follow Him every day, allowing him to shape you into the man he designed you to be. I pray that you know Jesus and love him with your whole being. I pray that you are full of integrity, grace, love, and compassion. I pray that you are loyal, trustworthy, hard-working, and full of laughter.

I wish so many things for you. I hope you are able to experience life to the fullest. I hope you travel the world, eat incredible food, meet amazing people, enjoy deep friendships, fall in love, and discover your passions. I know the world seems really big and scary to you right now, but it’s full of so many amazing experiences. I wish them all for you.

I promise you, baby, that we are going to do the very best we can for you. We are going to love you, support you, teach you, laugh with you, and cry with you. Sometimes the road will be bumpy, but we will always be there for you.

Do you know how lucky you are to have your daddy? He loves you so incredibly much. I can hardly wait until you learn how to be a man of character from him. He’ll teach you how to throw a baseball, how to ride a bike, how to build with LEGOs, and how to treat girls. He will model so much for you, Beckett. He is a loyal, loving, compassionate, selfless man and he gets to be your daddy!

I’m so excited to watch you discover new things every day. You’re learning how to smile, coo, and hold your head up now. You’re so precious and curious, always looking around to see what’s going on. I’m so proud of you. You’re going to be such a big boy soon!

We are going to have so much fun together, just you wait and see. 

Happy one monthiversary, baby boy.

From my favorite book: